Holiday Depression

Holidays and depression.......

The Holidays especially Christmas and New Years are the most depressing holidays.  Well fir me at least.  I know it's a hard holiday to face alone if you suffer from depression.  Not that I personally spend alone, but I still feel depressed. Because of all the love ones I had lost.  

Christmas holiday was always the most joyful for me.  Now it's the saddest. Christmas always been my favorite holiday but now it's tainted buy all those that have loved dearly and have been so very special to me.  Has passed away in December.

So to all those that suffer from depression I still want to say, that I know it could be stuff.  But remember your really never alone that there many people out there going through the same. 

Just try to remember when you had a nice and care free and joyful holiday....

Merry Christmas

Happy Holidays

Seasons greetings.  

Just random thoughts and writing with a touch of truth to it

Food for thought...........

I was just thinking how technology has ruined life. Yes they are a great form of entertainment. N i don't know how I ever lived without it.  When I  was a teenager I used to read n sew.  Now I look at my sewing machine n say oh maybe tomorrow I will to do something. Well no I get up n check my cell or iPad.

I have heard young people say I wish I had a love like that. That I marry n we last as long as our grandparents. That we have that 20, 30, 40,50 years of marriage. How could that happen now a days. Now that kind of togetherness is hardy seen. Why because of a cell phone trying to track you down.  Oh you call your better half and they don't answer. Well already you get worried or pissed. Depending on the situation. In our grandparents time there was no way to communicate with each other. Unless you send smoke signals like the Indians did. 

And then we have social medias. Social media was done to keep in touch with everything. Not go search for someone to play your boyfriend or girlfriend with. Not for people to instigate and try to break up relationships.

I have been married 2 times n I haven't been an angel everyone in our times f.... Up at times. But in the relationships that have lasted years is because people try to work things out n they forgive and continues loving each other. No one is perfect. Everyone has there way of being and I find that actually living with someone is so hard. You could get so pissed n hate the person. But like they always say there is a thin line btw love n hate. I for one would have made my marriage work. But I choose

 not to. Now I am alone wondering what if........

This is just random thinking. Not intended for anybody in particular.... Oh I forgot to mention I LOVE to write.

Fruits n vegetables to combat Depression n other ailments

When there wasn't any medication for every sickness,people used certain roots, berries, etc....

To cure themselves or bring relieve.

I am going to share these fruits, vegetables with you so that every could start eating a more healthy diet.

Also something you could use for depression.

A easy way to feel better when depressed

Music is one of the best kind of therapy for depression.  I am not saying that it cures it.  I am just saying that lively music gets me out of my depression mood.  But not sad music.  Like I listen to oldies cause it reminds me of my childhood.  And I had a very good childhood. So it makes me happy.  

But if I listen to sad romantic music about love and break ups I get more depressed because I didn't have a good marriage.  So you see that's what I call sad music.  Listen to music that makes you laugh, sing and dance.  I used to love to dance but in my home not in clubs.  So I would put on dancing music and dance and sing all around my house cleaning it.  Now that I am much older I can't dance or do a lot of movement because of my back and vertigo.  But I love to listen to it. 

Well I hope you could unwind and listen to music and get in a better mood. Now they have music therapy (go figure) just like physical therapy and occupational therapy. I also hope you enjoy these music quotes.

When depressed do you ever feel like........

When depression hits.......

Don't you start thinking of things you want to do.  I don't mean things like hurting oneself.  

I mean like wanting to go far away, where no one could find you.  Unless you want to be found, and you and I know we want to be found.  But then hours pass and no one comes looking for you.

Or you don't receive any call or text asking where your at.

That is one the most painful things one could go thru, and you just start crying a deep sentimental cry. 

How you ever felt this way???

Please pass my site around, with everything that is happening now a day.  We need to bring more awareness to mental illness.

If you need to talk to someone please call 311, the will put you thru to talk to someone that could help you.

Struggling with mental health issues

These quotes I am about to share are so true on there sayings.  It's remarkable that in this time and age people are still afraid to say they have a mental issue.  And to this day some people still don't go and get help.  Which could lead to a breakdown.  Or worst.  I do understand that your afraid that if you speak up you will get rejected. I understand because that was me.  But now I am more open about my condition.  I say it for the world to hear. We have to speak up and bring awareness to mental health. I now feel that whoever don't want to associate with me because of my mental health issues. It's ok  with  me.  I rather have a dog as a friend then deal with fake people anyway. They say oh she's crazy or the new term oh she's 730.  Who cares what they think.  Are they with you when you feel like you don't have a friend in the world. Are they there when you need a helping hand. Or to pay your bills and help with your problems.  No there not there so why should you care what they thing of you...

Just remember that there are so many other people going thru the same thing we go thru.  That we are not alone.

Insomnia, depression,

I hate the fact that your natural clock goes haywire.  Why do I say this its b cause there are times you are sleeping fine going to bed early.  Then your sleep pattern goes haywire, and you find yourself writing on your blog at 2am.  Like I am doing right now.  I get so sleepy but then I can't sleep until the wee hours of the night.

Now doctors  associate this with depression but I don't feel depressed.  Actually I have been feeling better for weeks now.  Like the calm before the storm.  So why can't I sleep, do I have something in the recess part of my mind that is causing me trouble with getting to sleep early.   

All I feel is that I have been feeling scared.  Like something terrible is going to happen.  I know my cousin is very sick and I know he is not going to make it.  But that doesn't make depressed , it makes me so sad so very sad.  I try not to think about. I have come to terms with it.  

I have lost so many loved ones that I think I am becoming numb to it all.

I have been thinking of the positive things in my life.  I am expecting a grandson.  He is to be born any minute, but he is being hard headed like his mom, my daughter.  This is the second baby to be born into our family in a matter of a month and a half.  The first one is a girl.  My first grand daughter.  But it pains me to say that I don't see her much.  But I sure am waiting for this baby to be born.  Hopefully I will be able to inter act with this baby more since the mother is my daughter.

Well guys in that note I will leave you now.  I am going to try and get some sleep since her due day is today Dec 3rd.  Well I know she hasn't felt anything.  But I was like that also then all of a sudden my water broke.  So I need to get some sleep just in case I have to rush out to the hospital.

I will keep you all informed......

Depressed, don't be!

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone who reads my blog and show me some love.

I know that people that suffer from depression, become more depressed in the holidays.  But you should sit down and think about your blessing.  Be it the most simple thing ever, could bring one happiness.  Just don't dwell on the unhappy moments. Dwell on the happy moments. 

I suffer from depression, and on holidays I feel extra depress.  But I start thinking of my Mom, Children and my grand kids.  So on a day like today Thanksgiving I give thanks for my blessings.....my family. 

So the smallest thing you have  could be your blessing.  Everyone had had some sunshine one time or the other.  Just reflect on that.

Sayings for the depress!

Posting a couple of sayings for the soul of the depressed.  I haven't been on for a while.  Have been struggling with a few matters of the soul.  Hopefully I will be back at it. For now I hope you guys enjoy the sayings I'm posting. 😏  

PS.  I'm also up 18 things sayings but sry they are coming out backwards!!!

Why do people kill themselves? Why do you think they do?

Why do you think people commit suicide? Maybe because they feel lonely or they are stressed, or they feel people don't care about them.  Because honestly people are so selfish and self centered these days, that they don't see a person suffering from depression giving them a cry for help.  Or they just don't give a fuck. Sometimes they say the wrong thing like "oh you know you suffer from depression, learn to deal with it." If people knew how to deal with depression, they wouldn't have depression.  People with depression be it regular depression or bipolar depression, suffer a lot, they hurt and they know how they are falling deep into the darkness of depression but they can't stop themselves. 

I believe that people with depression will learn to cope with it more if they had people around them that helped them cope. That cared enough to be there for them and just talk or just hold their hand. Dealing with someone that has  depression is no fun, but having depression is worst.  People don't understand how hurtful just one word could be to someone with depression especially if they are going thru a critical episode.

When I was 8 years old my uncle commited suicide. I never really understood why he will kill himself.  But now I must say that I understand a bit more of what he must of felt, when deoression took him over the brink to just say "fuck it" and end it all.  He must have reached that breaking point, the point of no return.  Most people with depression  have thought of commiting sucide at least once in their life time.  But the people that actually go thru with it are the ones (I guess) just reached their breaking point. 

I created this blog to help people, because I understand what people with depression go threw because I suffer from depression so I could relate to all the feelings, all the darkness and all the thoughts of suicide. And the everyday struggles you go thru to try and surpass these feelings. Sometimes things are so blink that one doent want to interact with anybody. And any lil thing sets them off.  I have days like that, actually today has been one of my worst days in a very long time.  

So that is why I decided to write this.  Many people will think that my writing is erratic but that's how it is.

Depression, bipolar,

Here I am posting pictures of people who suffer and had suffered from Mental Illness.  Illness like depression, bipolar.  I post this so you could see that anyone could have a mental illness and that it's really nothing to be ashame of.  You could have a mental illness and be brilliant, famous, a genius....

Maybe that is why they are famous and a genius.  Have you thought of it like that.  Maybe it's time you start seeing yourself in a different light. Maybe we all should.  Really what is normal?  We are normal.  We are special, because we could be who we want to be.  Yes we get very sad and down.  Maybe iits because we feel more then others, we are more in tune to our emotions.

Really my personal opinion is that we are as Normal as everyone else.  We are Special.

Signs of bipolar depression

I have been dong research on by bipolar depression and I came across an article that looked very interesting.  It was about living with some one with depression.  The person that wrote the article did a lot of research.  But is now selling copies of their research on how to deal with someone with bipolar depression. I also am doing research and I am sharing what I find with you for FREE.  I want to help people understand their or a relatives mental illness. Last nite while on Facebook I read about a young person committing suicide.  That is just horrible. I want to try and prevent such things. Maybe that is why I was put in this earth to do is to help people any which way I could. So please share my blog, because you don't know who may need this information.  All you have to do is share. Thank you.  Here I am going to share some charts I found with signs of bipolar.     

Did you know their is about 3 million people that suffer from bipolar in the United state alone.  My next post will be of celebrities who suffer from bipolar depression.

Bipolar Depression

Now I am going to be sharing information on bipolar depress. The symptoms of bipolar depression.  I will be learning as we go alone. I really don't much on bipolar. But u will be doing research and sharing it with you.  For now I'm going to post some inspirational quotes.  Here are some names of some books that may help.  Remember bipolar is an illness.

The Alliance for the Mentally Ill of NYS

21 Reason to Join this this group. The group of "The Alliance for the Mentally Ill of New York City".

I personally feel that if you need friends, social life, something to do, get out of your house.  Check out this group. Sometime all one needs is something to do. To keep your mind occupied and to physical activities. I occupy myself with taking my grand boys to school,picking them and taking care of them. Until their parents pick them up. Also training my puppie, crafting, decorating, and best of all therapy shopping.